How to co-exist with other people’s criticisms when they don’t mean any harm?
I had a chat with my guitar tutor on WhatsApp today, and I told him that I liked ESP guitars and would want to get one someday when I’m ready to invest. But I got triggered when he said, eww ESP are the worsts, why do you like those? (he’s a SUHR lover). (i.e. ESP and SUHR are guitar brand manufacturing companies!). And I just took it all in! He might just be joking, or just a simple-tease, and logically I know he’s a great great tutor! And hands on by far the best tutor that could teach me what I love to be able to play!
But sometimes the things he says triggers me from my past, and perhaps this all is just more tapping opportunities for me. But I sometimes really don’t know how to feel. Yes I feel hurt by that comment but as an emotionally sensitive person, I now know that many situations are not done because of other people’s direct ill-intention, but the relived experience of a true past event that severely hurt me.
I know Rick, that you’ve given me several advice for us to always taken care of others and not do things that is a “NO” for us. (e.g. like the time when I went for the thriller escape room and when I wanted to exercise even when I was hurting). I sometimes do also feel like I SHOULD be taking care of myself inspite of the consequences of doing so, losing out on meeting friends, missing out on amazing opportunities and here, missing out on a great learning journey from my guitar tutor etc. and I just don’t want a small trigger that perhaps I could make it a “YES” through tapping, to lose out on these opportunities. I sometimes do feel like I should feel safe, and draw my boundaries and to me that’s also super scary!!
I feel like if things were a true “YES” to me, ill probably be in my room all the time and just be in my comfort zone…so technically, we sometimes have the move out of our comfort zone, and make the "no"s to "yes"s, right?