I’m blogging every day this April in a large blogathon and I thought this would make a good topic for us to discuss.
All my life I’ve been waiting for this or that to be here and I would be happy.
Or if I just take this next class and get certified I will feel confident enough to do Tarot, Astrology or Angel readings. So I kept taking classes.
Then there was therapy! As someone who has had panic and anxiety most of my life, I looked for ways to heal.
First there was hypnosis. It helped.
Then there was Primal Scream. I had to face some of my scariest moments there.
Biofeedback was next. I loved it and learned for the first time what it felt to be totally relaxed. I’d love to have a biofeedback machine here. Yes I do remember that delicious feeling.
Several Past Life therapies were interesting. Did it help? No really but I’m glad I tried it. Yes I would do it again if circumstances presented itself.
I had several talk therapy sessions that were ok.
Now I work with EFT and I say this has been the best along with meditation and visualization. Do I still have anxiety and panic? Yes, but nothing like I used to.
I will be 85 in May and I am learning more and more to be in the NOW. If someone asked me where I saw myself in 6 months or 5 years I would just smile. I don’t have any long term goals and it is quite freeing.
This morning I woke up at 3:30 and my mind started racing about the “what if’s”. The appointments that I put off because of isolating are coming. Our 2nd week after our 2nd vaccination will be this Tuesday. There are things we need to do that we put on our waiting list are facing us. Not bad stuff, just stuff like getting new phones, having our HVAC inspected, buying a new stove top. I could feel my body tensing as all this rolled around in my thoughts. Then I remembered some of what I’ve learned.
Why am I thinking about things that are in the future when now is the only time I have. I closed my eyes and asked my self as I mentally tapped. “How do you want to feel”? Then I did my slow deep breathing and said, “Relax, let go and let God.” The next thing I knew it was 7:30.
Can I do this always? No. Sometimes those ornery voices in my head won’t hut up, but often they will.