i think also working with my feelings of loneliness in a different way. gus has helped there. and just what I have been doing with it.
i think joining a womens hiking group has been great for me. they are all lovely women and caring and inspiring. ive gone on some hikes but outside of that is seeing all these women post photos and brief accounts of the trip and seeing nice women older than me living life and celebrating life together. and i know the walks are sometimes hard but they do it together and have agreed to care for each other and that is lovely. it gives me hope for my own future and helps with the loneliness.
you and having these chats with you have been wonderful for me. i have no idea who you are in one sense and in another i feel really connected to you and when you share things they are so similar to my experience that i dont feel alone
everyone on circle and here is always so kind to me and responsive and it is lovely. so that even when i feel alone now there is more awareness inside me that I am not so alone even if i am alone. for me the human connection is still much easier and helpful to access than the spiritual.
i have been working with anger and hatred and rage and your super pissy rageful rae showed up here at a perfect time for me to feel a deep connection to. i was apparently born into a significant energy of hatred and it would seem it was present throughout my womb time and i certainly lived in a house full of hate throughout my life. i have known this but have still found it hard to experience and be with my own hate. this is starting to change and with the change i feel different. so i will continue to support myself with that
how is the night school going? have you been well enough to engage in it?
