I want to try and say a little more on my “vision” - but it’s also something I’m still exploring and trying on for size. Here is where it’s at for now: (there are 4 parts but they all kind of fit together):
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Get a better paying job so I can support myself financially (currently working 25 hours per week in retail, but the pay is not so great).
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Gain more energy & stamina (improvements in shifting chronic fatigue to more vitality)
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Get my own place to live (most likely through affordable housing / considering how high rents are now - I’ve been on the waiting list for 4 years)
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A win/win/win situation for mom & my sister & I (so I know mom will be safe and cared for when I leave. Right now I’m living with mom and it totally sucks, but she is getting older and I worry about her living alone now too. I just don’t want to be feeling so overly responsible for her in such a draining way. Goddess help us! I care about her well-being, and want to give what is truly mine to give, but there is so much codependency/enmeshment between us - it’s hard to sort out the truth of the matter and what burdens belong to me and which ones do not). So clarity & grace for all these matters is part of my vision too.
I know I’m stuck in certain ways - can sense my own inner resistance patterns and fears about making changes, so I will continue to tap on this for sure. Might go through Rick & Cathy’s - “Be What Matters” program to see what really matters most right now. Struggling to get deep clarity on how to shift things and to stop living my life in a state of overwhelm most of the time.
Not really looking for “advice” so much as just to be witnessed and seen & heard. Maybe even send healing energy / prayers if you feel so inclined.
Thanks & hugs: Shelley