I just finished Week 3 of this program and there is so much to it. I guess I’m halfway through and I know I will need to go back over again. There was one part of Week 3’s calls that really got to me - that was the one with @Dru going back to being a little kid and feeling abandoned. That really triggered me when I was 3 yrs old and my Dad left me in a motel room alone in China town and asked the motel manager to watch after me. He didn’t and when I woke up, my Dad was nowhere so I went looking for him.
I don’t know how far I had gotten from the motel, but I was on the streets of Chinatown in Los Angeles. I remember crying because I couldn’t find my Dad. A woman found me and somehow I ended up in the police station. I guess my Dad eventually found me and I don’t remember anything else about that trip that only my Dad and I took for him to get stuff for his business back in Arizona.
Thought I had dealt with it with EMDR a few years ago, but I think it was very helpful of Cathy walking Dru through to being a child then, but also as an adult in the present, and the interaction with his mom back then. That whole time, I just felt my heart tugging and I did eventually stop the audio, after I listened to it and tapped 2-3x along with the audio, I saw myself back when I was 3 and my Dad back then.
I don’t know if it released anything inside of me that needed to get out, but I hope it brought some healing. The forgiveness and compassion Dru had for his mom touched me so much. I don’t think my Dad realized back then that you just don’t leave a little kid all by herself and have a stranger watch her. I probably need to do more tapping with my little girl and the adult me and my Dad.
This stuff is powerful.