This brought up tears when I saw it just now.Anyone else? Tap tap
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I can feel itā¦
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Oh yes, I feel it with eyes welling.
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My eyes well each time I look at it. There have been fun times for sure but on the whole it really hasnāt been much fun.
Boy that sounded like whining. I think it has to do with expectations plus PTSD. Iād rather focus on the fun times but these sad feelings did come up when I saw the picture regardless of how Iād like to feel.
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I hear you, Jean 
It makes my heART feel good to see you having FUN now with your expressive drawings and AI art and photographing the birdās nest outside your window. Youāre definitely making up for lost fun!! 
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I totally understand your feelings on this Jean. I share a similar feeling about my life. And I donāt think you were whiningā¦you were simply expressing your felt truth and thatās always welcome and encouraged. If thatās not expressed and acknowledgedā¦if itās repressed then thatās far more deadly and harmful than any amount of whining is IMO.
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Thank you Glenn, I appreciate that you understand. Sorry you have a similar feeling about your life. I agree about not expressing and acknowledging our feelings but a part of me still remembers how, when I did express them, I was told to give it to Jesus or pray to God and everything would be healed. So unhelpful. I remember hearing āFor truly I tell you, if you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, āMove from here to there,ā and it will move.ā I wasnāt trying to move a mountain of course but I was trying to feel more peaceful and have the panic lessen. Instead I started questioning religion and the Bible. I had faith the size of a mustard seed. Those things are small. I believed!! It did lead me on an interesting journey which Iām still on. Iām glad Iām allowing myself to say no more often, to be able to walk out of places and not stay feeling trapped (most of the time) and tap!!! Life is a journey for sure. Thank you for listening.
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