Just here to share a video!
Thatās a good video @Jun_Rong, thanks for sharing it. I can certainly identify with a lot that was talked about.
I really like that videoā¦it very clearly lays out the āmechanicsā of repressed or unacknowledged feelings, emotions and sensations. It mirrors my experience.
My only complaint about it is some of itās language could have been chosen a bit more carefullyā¦a few things leapt out at me and activated a āUgh!ā response in me. The narrator at least twice used the word āfailureā in regards to not addressing our underlying emotions, as in, āour failure to address our emotionsā and āif we fail to addressā¦ā. Those are not exact quotes but are exact in how the notion of āfailureā was used. I think thatās a bit of a sloppy use of language to insert the notion that we have āfailedā in that task. It doesnāt land on me very nicely. Iām quite certain the intention was not to create the idea of āblameāā¦and Iām aware that itās a common usage of the word āfailureāā¦but I still consider it a bit inappropriate to use it within this context as it can be a bit triggeringā¦like it did to meā¦
In a similar way the narrator declares that insomnia is the ārevengeā of unacknowledged emotions. Well, I donāt think we seek revenge against ourselves. That just doesnāt make sense to me through any lens I look through. It may feel like thatās whatās happening butā¦thatās not whatās happening. Insomnia is a communication that there is an imbalance somewhere in our beingā¦something needs to be addressed and explored to bring ourselves back into balance. Insomnia is a real attention grabber and thatās itās intention I would say. That makes more sense to me than the notion of ārevengeā.
Other than that I think the video is very good.
@Glenn wow you have such clarity and awareness in being able to pick those out! I wouldnāt have noticed it until youāve pointed them out! Thank you! Itās also nice to know that many of my repressed sensitivities from the āughā responses in the little things that Iāve once experienced, is starting to not āfeelā so crazy after all. But instead, itās just us, empaths , navigating this not-so-clear world
But yeah, words have such powerful meanings! Now I do try to be a little more cautious of the words I use too⦠(though itās definitely hard and add stress sometimes )
My belief is that those āughā feelings are a clear communication from deeper, intuitive parts of us that are alerting us to a sort of āRight Distance/Right Depthā assessment of the thing that is making us feel āugh!āā¦asking us to take a āPowerful Pauseā.
And if we label those feelings as ācrazyā, well, thatās exactly the same sort of thing as describing insomnia as ārevengeā or not noticing or acknowledging feelings as a āfailureā.
I start from a premise that is biologicalā¦our biological design imperative is that of survivalā¦thatās fundamental. So how could it be that any āpartā of us would have the intention of wanting to perpetrate ārevengeā on ourselves or have us feel like a āfailureā or have us believe weāre ācrazyā. That defies the logic of our biological survival hardwiring. The learned behaviour of assigning negative and aggressive intentions toward ourselves from our feelings and sensations is in clear violation of our basic biological survival/thrival hardwiring so I dismiss it as simply a learned behaviour that has no basis in reality. But those illogical learned behaviours still need to be addressed in some manner and thatās what we do with tapping it seems to me.
@Glenn yes, that is true! However, I think how Iād see it for me is that even those illogical learned behaviours of āself-revengeā and āfailureā is a result of perhaps a biological response to survive in those difficult environments where we have little to no control! In that way, understanding that āthese learned behaviour of assigning negative and aggressive intentionsā are primitive back then gives it a certain sense of emotional relief, and takes the blame out of you (that which we are all too good in assigning ourselves for), but instead, attribute it as what it is, a shame to what happened back then in our lives.
And with that weight lifted off us, we can better accept and process these learned behaviours, and allow it to release it as to how nature has its course takenā¦!