Decision making has never been easy for me, especially for the last few ears when dealing with depression has been my everyday struggle.
For the last few months I have been faced with a new challenge, which will impact my life in a big way, I started my research and asked myself many questions, Why has it been so challenging for me right now?
I always believe that is a “right” decision and “wrong” one. Maybe it’s not right or wrong, maybe in choice 1 I will learn a,b,c and in choice 2 I learn x,y,z. We all have our preferences, what worked for someone else may not be a good fit for me.
I am also recognizing that trying to figure out life in my head and predict the outcome is impossible, Maybe, I just need to commit to one small action in a day. Can I be gentle with myself like I am a baby that is learning to walk?
I am also recognizing that fear is trying to protect me, I am trying not to be angry at myself and putting pressure, knowing that will keep me more stuck. At this moment I am struggling and can I be kind and compassionate toward myself, and take a breath, and remind myself that I AM GOING TO BE OK, I HAVE MY OWN BACK.