It’s useful to acknowledge that the ripening of a change happens differently and at varying points based on ones nature, the change, and the connections we have with others and our own inner guidance.
For me the “meandering no” is a clue – “Not a YES for me right now.”
It may or may not ripen into a yes or clarify into a no. If this is a sacred decision, the meandering NO is… actually a NO. Because it not a YES.