Hi all! I got on the call the other day wanting to talk about making a mess and how to clean it up but we didn’t have so much time and I clearly needed to go through the story, and got bogged down in that. So still needed to search myself for whether or how to make amends.
It was a real doozy of a situation and I learned more about a potential trigger to watch out for in the future. It was interesting because I had plenty of times for ‘powerful pauses’ in between in person visits and phone calls. A l l a f t e r n o o n.
It’s fair to say I was under-resourced that day having had some recent stress and little sleep the night before. But anyway, I lost it, as I said.
So I really did direct anger at this young woman and by my reckoning she only deserved a small amount of that at one point and then I needed to have been put through to someone else. She was clearly new in the role and was under-resourced in terms of not having a manager or senior person she could put me through to.
Anyway, up for discussion, is my yard stick on anger which is this quote from Aristotle:
Anyone can become angry, but to be angry with the right person, for the right reason, in the right way, at the right intensity, and for the right length of time, takes wisdom.
So the way I saw the interaction was that I had been angry at the right person for a small moment, which was appropriate but then went on to be way out of line, once she called me back saying I couldn’t be put through to someone, which wasn’t her fault. Nor was it her fault that she didn’t know the information, yet. Nor even really that she thought she knew what she was talking about. Which is why I wanted to be put through to someone with more experience.
Anyway, that quote helps me see where and to what degree I have potentially made a mess. I thought I’d share that and the card I sent to her yesterday, which apologises and lets her know what I appreciated. Which was basically a lot of things given her experience level and the circumstances.
The appreciation and encouragement seem to me to be more appropriate given her stella effort of actually (eventually) finding the information she needed to rectify the situation, on time. (Once I’d managed to get through to her. Well done me : )